this never fails to make me melt and go "awwwwww, ahhhhh, ohhh mannn..". how sweet can a person be? goodbyes are tough; they're depressing.

i was never good at saying goodbyes.

this  was also brought back a certain emotion or feeling that i guess was forgotten over time. perhaps time managed to cover layers and layers of dust over it but, unveiling the layers, the intensity certainly withstood the test of time.

how much is considered enough? how much must a person do to send a message across? how much must a person do to be loved in return?

ignorance. priority. attention. sacrifice. concern.  (...)

i remember saying this before..what hurts the most is looking back and realise you've lost the dearest of things. memories...only in memories.





"im never saying goodbye to you"

as the title suggests, i needa have a childish and immature rant. thankfully no one is reading this~

21st. a drop dead disaster, no matter how i try to feel positive and think otherwise.
no celebrations (even if there is, its like riding on another event and just a simple birthday song) with the exception of nanny.
no good meals out with people who matter.
no lavish birthday cards.
some pple who matter even forgot to wish me on fb but rmb for every other friend.
i dont feel special..

even my brother's 17th, his friends surprised him with a cake during his outing.
i dont need a cake, i just want a special time out with impt pple.

a fine line between dont care and think you dont need.
each time i see how pple are enjoying/enjoyed their 21st celebrations, i pout in envy.
i guess this will always be the sourhead inside of me for the rest of my life. *sulks*

alright, back to being mature and reasonable.
its okay...its just a 21st. people are busy, they've got no time.
seriously? there's always before and after.

familiarity breeds contempt.

2011 went and 2012 came. its the cny alr. wow..how time flies. no joke..

21st birthday came and went. i.....i dont know.

food food and more food.

there's a whole truckload of negative emotions right now..i've no idea where i can dispose em. i needa rant; need a listening ear but...my listening ear went missing. loneliness? sore? jealous? neglected? unfair? unjustified? i dont know. dont want to think about stuffs. quarrel quarrel quarrel. when will there ever be peace. dont remind me the reason behind how i felt before. troubled and dont know what to do.

just yacking my way..needa get it outta my system.

so near yet so far.
heart wrenching.

As the year comes to an end, we sit and reflect how the year went and how things could have been. Wells, there isn't much to think if the world is really gonna end next year, is there?

I'll save your eyes for my year's summary and just hope/wish/keep my fingers crossed for a better new year. May life be kinder.

Happy new year everyone!
Better wish before I fall asleep with the psp in my hands O.o

Ciaos!